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Single and Gay
November 23, 2010The title says it all! Yes, I am single. And for the first time I’ve been single for more than a month and I want to keep it that way for now.
Dane and I have been together for a year and almost a month. But the break up was sudden in the early of October. It was, of course, painful but we all know that every break up goes through it. It’s a process. You just don’t break up with someone and pretend as if nothing happened. I haven’t really talked to someone about it until recently with my couzin Cheska. And it was so much relieving. Thanks to her!
With regards to the break up, I wouldn’t really want to blame anyone because both of us have our own weaknesses. And I believe it wasn’t just meant to be. I’d rather think about the good things we’ve shared rather than dwelling on the things that have caused us pain. Our relationship was rather unique.
Moving on was seemingly easy at first but it all came out like a hurricane and had me knocked out like it was earthquake. Pretending everything was okay made me very unhealthy. And so I started to pick up the pieces and slowly trying to get back on my feet. And now I feel so much better than ever. And one of the best remedies to combat stress is EXERCISE! A recent break up can be very stressfull but EXERCISING can sweat it all out! And that’s what I’m doing and it’s just working.
That’s just how life is or should I say - that’s just how love is. When you love someone, it’s either you’re going to end up happy with the person you love or you’re going to end up getting hurt. But the question is - how would you know if you won’t try? Would you rather choose being a coward for not trying? So keep on loving you guys. But always be cautious. Keep in mind that anything that is too much is bad. It’s okay to give your all when loving but don’t ever forget to love yourself first. The lesson I’ve learned!
To dane, I know we had a hanging break up and maybe we need a closure. But one thing is for sure, I have forgiven you and I do hope that you have forgiven me too. If by any chance you will be able to read this, here’s a song for you that says it all about what my heart wants to tell you.
XOXO
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I agree with Cheska, I read this using my cp when i saw it in your wall. Well I have few things in mind that I’m praying and hoping that will help you in life. As your younger cousin, while i was doing stuff at home, I just can’t keep my mind of you. When me and m’ng had our talk last Sat, she told me what happen because I kept on asking her how was you. and I’m glad you had that moment with m’ng. but anyway, looking back on all the things that have happened. I felt somehow responsible on what happened to you. It’s because I love you and i was not doing my very best in protecting you from getting hurt. It has bothered me that I was too complaisant on what has been happening, you being in love and all. but do take note that I was happy that you were happy. But i wasn’t really sure it was the right decision considering that I had doubts concerning him. then again, i feel stupid that i didn’t take it seriously.
Nevertheless, I’m praying that we will have a nice talk really soon when i visit you and tito and the rest of kazins.. I really miss them also. But more importantly, I have something to tell and give you. Always keep in mind dear Mj, that you are always in my prayers and that I love you no matter what. xo♥
see you!
they say that if something ends, something even better begins. don’t dwell too much and just look towards the future. God has better plans for you. love you, J!
Posted by Cheska at November 23, 2010, 1:51 pm