November 15 - Happy Birthday Mommy!

 Today is my mom’s birthday. And I wish my mom is with us to celebrate it. I miss my mom and I hope that she will be coming home soon to be with my dad again.

My relationship with my mom has its ups and downs. Back when I was younger was pretty much “the downs.” But lately, it’s getting better. Growing up wasn’t always easy for me with my mom. She had a hard time understanding and knowing me for being gay. It took her a very long time to accept who and what I am. The real acceptance happened when I graduated in college and got my Bachelor’s degree. My mom and I missed out a lot because I wasn’t close to her. She scolded me a lot and even hated me for being gay. (I know ’cause she told me that herself back when I was in high school.) But it all changed when I graduated in college. I never hid who I am to my family. I never pretended to be someone else and my mom knew that. I fought for who I am and the fight that I had with my mom about my sexual orientation was the toughesst I guess. But despite my dreadful past with my mom, I never thought that we’d become close as we are today.

Today, my mom and I talk a lot over the phone. We would just talk about anything under the sun from dresses to make-ups to bags to computers and my future. LOL! I’m thankful that my mom and I got close even if it took a long time. She is now happy for who I am and accepts me as me. She would even send me make-ups and blouses. Imagine that!

Change is truly the only thing that doesn’t change in this world. I miss my mom. Thank you for everything you have taught me. For all the things we’ve been through, the hardships and hurts we’ve shared, the love that we thought we’d never show with each other and for just simply being my mother, Thank you mommy. And Happy Birthday. I Love you. *sobs*

XOXO