Latin Dance Ritmix by Ulises: "side to side and t-t-ta-touch your body!"

“Beautiful!” “I Like This!” “Enjoy!” “Are you ready from the top?!”

These are the words I love everytime I dance to Ulises’ Retmix exercise routines. Thanks, again, to my couzin Cheska for introducing me to such a fun way to exercise and dance. You guys should try this one. It’s easy and so much fun that you wouldn’t want to stop!

“libre libre … baila baila .. mi vida!” Whooooooooo!

XOXO

Single and Gay

The title says it all! Yes, I am single. And for the first time I’ve been single for more than a month and I want to keep it that way for now.

Dane and I have been together for a year and almost a month. But the break up was sudden in the early of October. It was, of course, painful but we all know that every break up goes through it. It’s a process. You just don’t break up with someone and pretend as if nothing happened. I haven’t really talked to someone about it until recently with my couzin Cheska. And it was so much relieving. Thanks to her!

With regards to the break up, I wouldn’t really want to blame anyone because both of us have our own weaknesses. And I believe it wasn’t just meant to be. I’d rather think about the good things we’ve shared rather than dwelling on the things that have caused us pain. Our relationship was rather unique.

Moving on was seemingly easy at first but it all came out like a hurricane and had me knocked out like it was earthquake. Pretending everything was okay made me very unhealthy. And so I started to pick up the pieces and slowly trying to get back on my feet. And now I feel so much better than ever. And one of the best remedies to combat stress is EXERCISE! A recent break up can be very stressfull but EXERCISING can sweat it all out! And that’s what I’m doing and it’s just working.

That’s just how life is or should I say - that’s just how love is. When you love someone, it’s either you’re going to end up happy with the person you love or you’re going to end up getting hurt. But the question is - how would you know if you won’t try? Would you rather choose being a coward for not trying? So keep on loving you guys. But always be cautious. Keep in mind that anything that is too much is bad. It’s okay to give your all when loving but don’t ever forget to love yourself first. The lesson I’ve learned!

To dane, I know we had a hanging break up and maybe we need a closure. But one thing is for sure, I have forgiven you and I do hope that you have forgiven me too. If by any chance you will be able to read this, here’s a song for you that says it all about what my heart wants to tell you.

XOXO

November 15 - Happy Birthday Mommy!

 Today is my mom’s birthday. And I wish my mom is with us to celebrate it. I miss my mom and I hope that she will be coming home soon to be with my dad again.

My relationship with my mom has its ups and downs. Back when I was younger was pretty much “the downs.” But lately, it’s getting better. Growing up wasn’t always easy for me with my mom. She had a hard time understanding and knowing me for being gay. It took her a very long time to accept who and what I am. The real acceptance happened when I graduated in college and got my Bachelor’s degree. My mom and I missed out a lot because I wasn’t close to her. She scolded me a lot and even hated me for being gay. (I know ’cause she told me that herself back when I was in high school.) But it all changed when I graduated in college. I never hid who I am to my family. I never pretended to be someone else and my mom knew that. I fought for who I am and the fight that I had with my mom about my sexual orientation was the toughesst I guess. But despite my dreadful past with my mom, I never thought that we’d become close as we are today.

Today, my mom and I talk a lot over the phone. We would just talk about anything under the sun from dresses to make-ups to bags to computers and my future. LOL! I’m thankful that my mom and I got close even if it took a long time. She is now happy for who I am and accepts me as me. She would even send me make-ups and blouses. Imagine that!

Change is truly the only thing that doesn’t change in this world. I miss my mom. Thank you for everything you have taught me. For all the things we’ve been through, the hardships and hurts we’ve shared, the love that we thought we’d never show with each other and for just simply being my mother, Thank you mommy. And Happy Birthday. I Love you. *sobs*

XOXO

Back to Blogging

And so here I am again. Wonder where I’ve been? Well, I’ve been to nowhere but hiding because I’ve been too much pre-occupied with love, gaming, work and pretty much being anti-social, which made me very much unhealthy. I even gained weight which is pretty mcuh depressing. But anyway, the last post I had was back in April and it was so much different of what my life is like right now. Yes! A lot of surprising stuff I’m still going to share to you about what happened to my life lately. So stick around and please do read my recent post.

xoxo