LoveLife UPDATE: Possessiveness

Fuck! I’m overly possessive! I hate it! I hate being this way! I don’t know how to stop it! I’m acquisitive, avaricious, controlling, grabby, hoggish, selfish, grudging, skeptic AND SO MUCH MORE!!!!!!!!! Errrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

I have never been this way to anyone before, not even to my ex-boyfriends! They were the ones who were this way to me! But now, it’s a totally different story! The tables are turned! For the love of God mj, when will you stop?!!!!!

I’m sorry for the way I am and I hate the way I am now! One small mistake he does, I flare up! It’s not even a mistake, it is my standards! Fuck my standarsd! Fuck my demands! There’s too much bullshit in them! Shit!

Forgive my words but I can’t help the way I’m feeling right now! I have so much hate for myself! I’m sorry God! I’m sorry Mine! I’m sorry! and I hate you mj! Damn you! Fuck you mj! Errrrrrrrrrrrr! Please Please Please change! And I guess I’m too much in love! that ain’t a bad thing, right? Too much love will kill me?

Fuck XOXO! 

ChuvaLife UPDATE: He’s Married!

Lalaine, one of my gay friends whom I really treasure considering the fact that I’ve known him since I was a kid, is married.

Who would have thought that an extremely out loud I’m Gay super model body Melanie Marquez kinda’ gay like Lalaine would get married to a woman whom I know he loves so dearly and happy to be with. They both have exchanged their vows before God last 21st of September 2009. I was invited but didn’t really have the chance because of my review and work at the same time. But nevertheless, my heartfelt congratulations and best wishes I offer them with prayers and support.

Anyway, Lalaine just arrived from manila today and suprisingly, he paid me a visit this afternoon. He told me what happened before and after his wedding. Not to mention, that our friend Achoo was the wedding planner, coordinator, madame all in one! Lalaine told me that there were instances that almost brought him to tears before the wedding day. Fires were started, but with Achoo’s power, it was turned off by sprinkling waters he has generated. And the rest is history. Kuyaw!

I too wants to be married someday. But to the man I love the most. Well, by now I think you know who he is. By that time, I’ll be wearing my long white elegant cleavage-showing wedding dress as I will walk down the Isle wearing O’ Mei’ Su on my face. Wouldn’t that be grand? Sigh!

But until then, I have to content myself with my long hair and pretty face. LOL.   

XOXO